Hello beauties! I am SO EXCITED! Relaunch is officially here! I am so excited to welcome you into my NEW world of living beautifully!
So, let me start by telling you a little story. Just a few short months ago, I was not living beautifully. Actually, I was barely surviving. I was working several very difficult jobs, one of which required me dragging my babies into a daily situation that was not the best for them, we were sick c o n s t a n t l y and frankly I dreaded waking up each morning only to face yet another day that I would count the hours until it was over in the anticipation of yet another sleepless night. While this was an excruciating existence for me, what hurt the most was that my children were not only unhappy, they were often miserable. It came to a breaking point, and I knew things had to change. Remember that post I wrote about choosing to thrive? I made the terrifying choice to jump off the ledge, as it were, and make a radical change for my family. It wasn’t easy. I’ve battled EVERY SINGLE DAY what I call the Blame Game. “Oh it’s harder for me to live abundantly, my life is more difficult due to xyz, it’s harder for me than that girl because blah blah blah”.
But, I called BS on myself. It is SO MUCH EASIER to lay the blame for a less than beautiful existence on our situation, but the truth is, THE POWER TO CHANGE IS IN OUR HANDS. Our hands. No one else’s. You can take the girl out of the situation but you can’t take the situation out of the girl until she decides for herself. I read somewhere that you have to start where you’re at or you’ll never start. And it’s true. Had I waited until our circumstances were better, until things were easier, until I thought I was ready, I would have NEVER started. Because, you can always be more prepared, the situation can always be better. But if you don’t “jump” and go for it, if you wait until you think the time is right, you may never jump. And there you will be, living a life of mediocrity and finding excuse after excuse as to why. Trust me, I know because THIS WAS ME. And don’t even think I haven’t had more days than I’d like to admit that I questioned my decision, that I panicked because I thought I had made the wrong call, jumped too early, or too far. BUT. I didn’t.
Know what I did this morning? I had coffee, while my sweet little ones (who are currently healing from a cold we caught at gymnastics) snuggled in blankets and I talked to my incredible team of amazing women and then started work on the next Confidence newsletter. Has it taken work to get to this point? Absolutely, and not in the least which has been the mental work to fight through the crippling fear I have held on to for SO many years. But has it been worth it? ABSO FREAKING LUTELY. Instead of dragging my kiddos around and prolonging this silly cold, I was able to stay home and nurture them so they have healed faster. Not to mention, we even have the ability to DO gymnastics classes now. Is every single moment of every single day absolutely perfect and filled with nothing but sparkles and unicorns? Of course not! I am a mother, I have a husband in medical school, I am HUMAN. I still have challenges! BUT. What has changed is how I deal with them. Life isn’t meant to be a dreary existence dragging from one miserable day to the next. I can sit here and tell you, life can be something you don’t need an escape from.
And, I’m so excited to share with you how we have made these changes and hopefully help YOU find your most beautiful life. I will be sharing how my husband and I have made drastic changes for our marriage, (truly, how we SAVED our marriage), ways I have simplified our lives from the big things to the small things, how I’m conducting a complete overhaul on my personal closet (because it got really, really pathetic), stories of my twins (because I want to remember!), beauty and self care tips that have made a HUGE difference in my own self confidence, and basically everything I’ve done to make our lives beautiful and accept God’s abundance, because I want to help YOU do the same for yours. Beauty over mediocrity, let’s do it! The power is OURS, let’s start, let’s act now! <3